If he loved with all the powers in his puny being, he couldn't love as much in 80 years, as I could in a day. -Heathcliff

The Art of Procrastination.

Well, this summer was suppose to be "the summer I got things done"... But it's near the end of July, and I've sadly only read a couple of books (none of which were the ones I need to read for school next year) and have not completed writing any of my books.
Oh, have I mentioned yet that I write books? ... I guess not. Well, I do, and my stupid procrastination and work schedule is killing my creativity. D:
Anyways, I am very disappointed with myself. I really wanted to finish writing, and had a whole list of books I wanted to read.
I guess I have four or so weeks to get some of what I want done before my life gets really busy again....
 It takes so much time to do anything. It's almost depressing.. I mean, by the time you get off work and run the necessary errands of the day, you only have an hour or two of down time. I wish it was possible to have one whole day to myself to just do things I wanted to do.. I guess that's selfish.. though it would still be nice.

That's what is on my mind for the moment.
So goodbye for now- the mind will be up and blogging again after I spend some time with my books.
~Kaylee

We're playing life like we are out of tune.

Of Mice and Men

Lennie spoke craftily, “Tell me- like you done before.”

“Tell you what?”

“About the rabbits.”

George snapped, “You ain’t gonna put nothing over me.”

Lennie pleaded, “Come on, George. Tell me. Please George. Like you done before.”

“You get a kick outta that, don’t you? Awright, I’ll tell you, and then we’ll eat our supper….”

George’s voice became deeper. He repeated his words rhythmically as though he had said them many times before. “Guys like us, that work on ranches, are the loneliest guys in the world. They got no family. They don’t belong no place. They come to a ranch an’ work up a stake and then they go inta town and blow their stake, and the first thing you know they’re poundin’ their tail on some other ranch. They ain’t got nothing to look ahead to.”

Lennie was delighted. “That’s it- that’s it. now tell it is with us.”

George went on. “Wit us it ain’t like that. We got a future. We got somebody to talk to that cares about us. We don’t have to sit in no bar room blowin’ in our jack jus’ because we got no place else to go. If them other guys gets in jail they can rot for all anybody cares. But not us.”

Lennie broke in. “But not is! An’ why? Because… Because I got you to look after me, and you got me to look after you, and that’s why.”  He laughed delightedly. “Go on now, George!”

“You got it by heart. You can do it by yourself.”

“No, you. I forget some a’  the things. Tell me about how it’s gonna be.”

“O.K someday- we’re gonna get the jack together and we’re gonna have a little house and a couple of acres an’ cow and some pigs and-“

“an’ live off the fatta the lan’,”  Lennie shouted. “An’ have rabbits. Go on, George! Tell about what we’re gonna have in the garden and about the rabbits in the cages and about the rain in the winter and the stove, and how thick the cream is on the milk like you can hardly cit it. Tell about that, George.”

“Why’nt you do it yourself? You know all of it.”

“No… you tell it. It ain’t the same if I tell it. Go on… George. How I get to tend to the rabbits.”

“Well,” said George, “we’ll have a big vegetable patch and a rabbit hitch and chickens. And when it rains in the winter, we’ll just say heck with goin’ to work, and we’ll build up a fire in the stove and set around it an’ listen to the rain comin’ down on the roof”

………….

The little five year old boy, who had grown up in a world where earthly parents weren’t always kind to him and food was scarce, curled up into Jesus’ lap.

“Jesus, tell me how it’s gonna be.. When I die, and I don’t have to be here anymore.”

Jesus wiped away one of the little boy’s tears with his thumb, and rocked him back and forth.

“But you know that story..”

“I know, but I wanna hear you say it again… Tell me ‘bout the day when I get to eat all I want, and get to be with you.”

The little boy smiled and curled closer in the circle of his maker’s arms as he waited patiently for the story to begin.

“Well someday, you’re gonna wake up and you’ll find yourself standing in the most beautiful country in the world. Everyone there will be smiling and singing and dancing-“

“And eating?!”

The little boy said excitedly as he jumped up in his Father’s lap. Jesus smiled a bittersweet smile for He knew the little boy wasn’t getting the food and love he needed on earth.

“Yes, kiddo, you can eat all you want.”

“And what about you? You said you’ll be there, right?”

The boy settled back down and looked desperately in Jesus’ eyes for he knew that Heaven would be pointless and dull without God there.

“Yes, I’ll be there to hold you anytime you want me too.. And you know what?”

“What?”

His wide eyes looked into the compassionate set of eyes above his own.

“You’ll never go hungry. You’ll never go unloved, and you’ll be happy. There is no suffering where I am going to take you.”

A huge grin played across the face of the boy. Jesus smiled back and wrapped His strong arm tighter around the boy. 

“And we’ll-“

“Be together forever?”

The boy finished the sentence for Him.

“Yes, kiddo, we’ll be together forever.”

“That’s gonna be the best part, Jesus, cause I love you a whole lot.”

He rested his head against Jesus’ chest.

“And I love you with my whole heart, my child.”

They sat together in silence for a few minutes just smiling.

“And what about every one else?”

The boy continued the conversation.

“Well, everyone else gets to decide whether they want to be in my family. I give them that choice… If anyone wants to live with us in Heaven all they have to do is follow me there..”

“Why wouldn’t anyone not wanna follow you, Jesus. I think you’re awesome..”

The little boy said a bit bothered by the thought of anyone passing up the generous offer Jesus has given them by dying on the cross so they could be His friend too.

Jesus sighed and a pained look appeared on His face. It hurt Him to know that the very people He cared so much about didn’t want anything to do with Him.

“Because the world doesn’t want me right now… And I need to let them decide who they want for themselves.”

A tear fell down Jesus’ cheek and the boy took his finger and wiped it away.

“I want you.”

The boy said simply.

“I want you too.”

Jesus replied with a smile from ear to ear, and continued to rock the boy to sleep.

… So yeah, that’s where my mind took me while reading that scene in Of Mice and Men.. I hope someone gets something out of it.. The God of the universe WANTS you, and He has a wonderful “Happy ever After” story for your life. Just follow Him.

Oh and another thought… I think we are a lot like Lennie.. Dumb and careless at times. But isn’t it wonderful to know that there is a God that chooses to love us even though we are dumb and ignorant? He let’s us follow Him around and be His friend- not only that, but we get to be His children. The God OF THE UNIVERSE is offering you a home (the greatest home in all the universe, might I add) will you pass that up?

Maybe dat's your problem too by James Hall

All my pwoblems
who knows, maybe evwybody’s pwoblems
is due to da fact, due to da awful twuth
dat I am SPIDERMAN.

I know. I know. All da dumb jokes:
No flies on you, ha ha,
and da ones about what do I do wit all
doze extwa legs in bed. Well, dat’s funny yeah.
But you twy being
SPIDERMAN for a month or two. Go ahead.

You get doze cwazy calls fwom da
Gubbener askin you to twap some booglar who’s
only twying to wip off color T.V. sets.
Now, what do I cawre about T.V. sets?
But I pull on da suit, da stinkin suit,
wit da sucker cups on da fingers,
and get my wopes and wittle bundle of
equipment and den I go flying like cwazy
acwoss da town fwom woof top to woof top.

Till der he is. Some poor dumb color T.V. slob
and I fall on him and we westle a widdle
until I get him all woped. So big deal.

You tink when you SPIDERMAN
der’s sometin big going to happen to you.
Well, I tell you what. It don’t happen dat way.
Nuttin happens. Gubbener calls, I go.
Bwing him to powice, Gubbener calls again,
like dat over and over.

I tink I twy sometin diffunt. I tink I twy
sometin excitin like wacing cawrs. Sometin to make
my heart beat at a difwent wate.
But den you just can’t quit being sometin like
SPIDERMAN.
You SPIDERMAN for life. Fowever. I can’t even
buin my suit. It won’t buin. It’s fwame wesistent.
So maybe dat’s youwr pwoblem too, who knows.
Maybe dat’s da whole pwoblem wif evwytin.
Nobody can buin der suits, dey all fwame wesistent.
Who knows?

Are you wearing a mask? Are you who you need and want to be? Maybe we are too accustomed to living comfortably that we never can muster up enough GUTS to jump off the edge and be ourselves. It’s easier to follow the crowd… But let’s not be that way.. I can see through your mask, so take it off. I want to see your real face. I want to see what makes you, you…

I have this same problem. So..

“Maybe dats yours pwoblem too..”

We need to be sick of living only for ourselves.

The whole world tells us to find our “individual self” and to do what ever makes us happy and blah blah.. But we’re SO busy worrying about our “individuality” that we forget there is a whole world suffering out there. If only we could raise our head out of our hands and use that same drive we have to make ourselves happy to make others happy, we could change our world.. But we are too conceited. Why is the world teaching us to be so conceited!? It helps NO one.. This self absorbed mindset and self pity will be the death of us all…. I for one am sick of living for myself, so I’m done.

“Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited. Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.  Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”says the Lord. On the contrary:

   “If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
   if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.

In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.”

~Romans 12: 9-21~

C.S Lewis... Mere Christianity

“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”